I can’t believe that tonight was my last weigh-in for January!
Despite not having the best week tracking-wise and having two social events, I’ve lost 0.5 lb and I’m happy with that all things considered. I’ve now got 1.5lb to go to reach my first mini-goal of 7lb.
I’ve had two social events this week. The first was a curry for my dad’s birthday on Thursday night. I didn’t feel like having a ‘healthier’ option dish so instead I had curry and split a portion of rice and a naan bread with Mr FFF. But I pointed (sort of – more about that later) what I had and didn’t finish it all. The result was that I went home feeling satisfied but not feeling as though I was about to burst. I also chose to drive rather than have a couple of drinks as I thought that this would be a good way of balancing out the food choices a little bit.
On Saturday, Mr FFF and I were at a property investment seminar all day. It was one of a series we have been going to and I know from previous experience that it is wall-to-wall buffet food. I prepared myself for this mentally in advance and told myself that I wasn’t going to deny myself all the good stuff but that I also didn’t want to come away feeling bloated and like I’d blown my chances at losing weight for the week. As a result, I did have a little of everything but just chose larger portions of the healthier salads and fruits and smaller portions of the less-healthy cakes and biscuits than I’d normally have.
Having had such a good time at Zumba last Sunday, and knowing that I’d got two social events coming up, I decided to go to another Zumba class on Friday night. I took my kit to work with me so I could go straight from there (note to self, don’t leave gym kit in boot during sub-zero temperatures). As the clock ticked towards 5pm, I didn’t feel much like going but I knew that once I got there and got started it wouldn’t be that bad. As it turned out, I enjoyed it even more than I had done on the Sunday and I’m planning on going again this week.
The Bad What I’ve learned
I’ve been continuing to work on developing my mindset this week and one of the ways I’ve done this is to listen to another podcast. This time the topic was about how focusing on the things we do do wrong or the ways in which we fail leaves us stuck in the rut we are trying to get out of rather than helping us to find a solution to our problems. You can listen to it here if you’re interested.
This really resonated with me. Often, in the past, I’ve become really hung up on all the things I’ve ‘failed at’ in regards to my weight loss: not tracking accurately; having a binge; not going to the gym etcetera, etcetera ad infinitum. The result is that I feel bad about myself, berate myself for my failings, feel even worse about myself and then decide that the only thing that can comfort me is diving mouth first at a large bar of chocolate.
But listening to this podcast, I realised that I’ve probably been going about this all wrong. So I’m trying to accept the blips in my weight loss journey in a non-judgemental way (hence the renaming of this section of the post).
Last week I said I was going to aim to track all week again. This went out of the window somewhere during mid-morning of day 1!! As I’ve said before, I’m currently finding staying on track to be a mental challenge. I think this week my mind was thinking, “I’ve got 2 social events coming up this week with loads of food involved so I can use them as my excuse not to track.” It was also my mind being a self-saboteur and doing it’s habitual ‘I can’t stay on track for more than a week at a time’ routine.
Previously I might have viewed this as a failure and given myself a hard time about this leading to a negative, self-sabotaging cycle (see above). But instead, I thought back to the message in this podcast, acknowledged that this was simply a habitual way of thinking and decided that I would still try to track the next time I put something in my mouth.
The result was that I physically tracked some things this week and I mentally tracked most things. It has also helped me learn that not tracking for one meal does not mean I have to throw in the towel completely for the week. It has also highlighted the fact that when I physically track rather than just tracking in my head, I have more chance of losing more weight. I’m going to try to remind myself of this as I go through this week.
Thanks for reading,
What ‘failures’ do you dwell on and how can you try to turn these into positives to learn from?